Yeah. We see how that worked out. No relationships for Allie for about a year. Need to get my crap lined up and my life settled. No boys, just work and teaching. Teaching and work.

I greatly dislike bring played and I hope this isn’t what he has just done to me.

Well, here I am. New year, new aspirations, new feelings. I like being alone sometimes and other times I freak out and can’t stand the solitude.

I’m thinking I’ll be staying here with the Hogans even after Katherine returns. It’s already February. Dominic hasn’t left once.. Which is okay. I’ve learned to not feel awkward around him (: he’s really a good guy, if a little over the top sometimes.

The hedgehog almost went into hibernation last night so I had to wrap him up in a heating pad and keep him warm. I probably was on the floor in the hall for an hour just holding him.

I had a good day yesterday. It felt nice to just relax and enjoy the company of people who make me feel like being me is alright. I’m never going to change for anyone again. It broke me in more ways to manipulate my own mind than when my heart was actually broken and left. You know? Now that I’m making discoveries about myself, I’m finding that I like myself and I don’t ever want to lose me again. After all, in the end, all we really have is ourselves.

I’m going to paint today. I’ll try to get a photo up but I don’t think I can find a camera.

Anyway.. This is Allie, over and out.